gone childhood

Jan/1st/2017!
Sunday, 09:45am

childhood gone in fun
immaturity in past reality,
half of this age vooshed in joy,
& the rest of it...
in irrational confidentiality.

now...
the life becoming more rougher
tough time mui yo passing throu',
struggle been no part of thy life
hell now...  it is, it ain't no adieu.

just like struggle, even the time ain't no bid us adieu. it keeps recirculating around this universe. what u've had in past may not have in present. and what u have in present, may, might not have been so in ur past... but in b/w that, however, yet indeed it's true that...  ur childhood never stays the same for long.

just spent my gone days in...
sitting on couch
holding a cup of tea...
in hands;
with some books,
& black laptop on lap.
now the time gone vanished
from life. &...
me being lost into the...
bizarre of worldly nap, i fleck.

like a speck of dust, & a fleck of candlelight chandelier, your childhood with age gets disappeared from the life in afew blinks.

ah...  perhaps,
it's just the.. nature's call. and we all have to obey... i know, we all keep passing throu' same dilemma of life. so it's okay to accept what's shown by reality of this world: #Struggle.

furthermore...
just in a worrying of job, i see the youth keep (s) wandering throu' the analogies of very hard time. students doing suicide just cos of being pressurized by coaching institutes. they're failed to procure such stress of life, & suicide is what they doing now a days to meet a bit peace of life. they are all being caught under the undisguised indulgence of depression. and what brings 'em depression is...  the lack of having contended life... cos, happiness is already snatched by this worldly norms.

and on this i certifying...

the world just sleeping in reality;
dreaming the world in dreams,
the youth keeps...
wandering throu' the scavenge of job..
nothing they getting but...
unfaithfulness by all it means.

im just sitting on the same couch i used to sit on, and consistently worrying 'bout something i ain't even know about...

... back in 2015, i had a job that i would hardly stand for a week.

2016 been quite an unusual year. done new things. but never applied 'em into actions at all. just spent it whole in college days. or sitting on couch. sleeping at home. worrying of project files, & living under the stress of stupid exams, & in the suppressed distress of literature norms.

and now as 2017 just... entered my life, outta nowhere, i realizing... how tough the life is, & how tougher it could be... without what you don't have: #Job!!