Random Thoughts ~

Today, it's 6th December, 2020 - here i am sitting on my bed and wondering about not just how fast the time has gone but also how an year has been dwelled somewhere in past... 2020 is about to leave.. we are all going to enter anew so-called year 2021 in a few days... 

I still remember when i was little, i used to make resolution (s) every new year and for the first month of new year, i used to keep try hard to work on accomplishing my resolution and dreams.. but with walking time, i would go get more lazy ov'r time and start putting off things to tomorrow... 

... it has now been so many gone years. 2020 is even about to get replaced with 2021.. i may have achieved a lot things what a regular.. random and an average guy gets or works hard-or-easy on to achieve in life but i admit that i have been way fruitless to get what i wanted to.. and this has been a question to me since long to know and to find answer to: "what am i supposed to get? and what am i supposed to do with my life?" 

When i was little, i wanted to get a job because i wanted to earn money like others. And now when i have a job, of course, just like others.. i am also wondering; gone lost in my own obviously just like others. In the race of people & daily norms, i too find me at the same spot of life where i find me nowhere but lost amongst the crowd of people, unrecognized. 

Moral: 

- Never run after what everyone is tryna chase on. If you do so, you will end up with same things they already ended up with - emptiness! 

- If you wanna work on your dreams, you have to stop following others and do things differently that, i know, will never come in people's favor... because if you do things differently, people will never appreciate or like it as it never falls into their category.. and this is where half of this world gone lost into. 

Advice: Stop listening to others all time, do your thing and work on your dreams to build it better. 

- Dreams are never died, they are just lost in your own thoughts - the disposition of thoughts. If you take some time to find 'em in you, you shall definitely meet what you left a long back. 

- Sharing dreams with others is good but it doesn't make any difference if you do the same what others keep doing since long you have achieved your dreams or else people will either stop you chasing on your dreams or will get you hypnotized with your own ecstasy - The Distraction! 

Also, when i could never accomplish my resolutions, i used to mock at other's resolutions. And now i realize why i would do that; and what made me doing so - it's all human nature. When you are failed to achieve something in life, you think it's impossible to be achieved... 

... and when you see others keep tryna hard to achieve 'em in their life, you start making fun of their dreams and resolutions because you think they are fool who wasting time on making resolutions... which now i find very stupid. 

Ps.

Every one has different life; different way of living. One should never let others feel down even rather help others stand up when they are down. This is how you make difference and even achieve your own dreams - helping others achieve something often helps you achieve something, undisguised...  which can never be written or told or shared but can only be felt and personified.

Usually It Happens... What Happens...

4.24pm  (CST) - 10/31/2020

2.54am (IST) - 11/01/2020

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Too many varieties of people you daily get to meet, esp. when you interact w/ people. At first, everyone looms to be friendly... absorbing... 'like-minded' & pretty devoted as well, perhaps as time accumulates by, we start analyzing people not by their words or behavior but their 'Mentality' they keep towards you; or 'bout others... 

... most times, we judge people by their proverbial born nature, esp. the way they treat others but there are always those scenarios as well when we know 'em by making assumptions. There is & will always be much difference b/w 'Judgement' & 'Assumptions'... & these two words really play a vital role amongst everyone's lives... 

and when it comes to 'Professional' &/or 'Personal' life, it becomes pretty hard to choose which side we need to sway along because there's always this moment when thoughts contract thinking to one's mind, & when it happens... we either loose people as friends or become their mind's perspective or perception undisguised. 

Usually, it happens to those who treat others equivalently w/ friendliness, though sometimes or most times, most people take advantage of your friendliness and start loosing your worth in their life when they 'know you'... & it's important to learn why we should not treat everyone equally.. it really does make different to life when it comes to respect...

.. as long as people don't know you, they swing in any way but once they start knowing you, they start getting control on you, esp. to keep themselves stand tall and proving their points right when things don't go right, sometimes.

As if i talk honest, in my perspectives what i feel about today's reality is, we should remain 'Be Us'; shan't loose our originality just because someone or others do not like you. it could be either you are living around wrong people or they are living w/ wrong mentality, though funny thing is, we can not change anyone until we either change our thoughts or change the way of our 'friendship', 'colleague-ship' or whatever-beap-ship... mentality we have in our life.. because usually it happens what just happens, perhaps mismatching of thoughts shan't be the cause to one's 'Desperandum'.

Ps.

everyone should follow what's important in life; & learn to ignore irrelevant things/people. this is how one can remain constant w/ his choice of decisions... in life.

Memories Of Cafe's Site ~

 And there comes this moment when we sit alone somewhere in dark room; on bed.. on floor.. or may be, on sofa... n keep remembering.. n recalling.. n missing the ol' gone time that often keeps us all awake.. till dawn & pulls us back into the apocalypse of past & its good/bad memories - 

Today, i visited this cafe's site after a very long time, and see too many new faces, esp. both the young & aged writers... n keep writing and walking along time every day and night making and imprinting another memory of the {passing} day. It was a time when i was so new to this cafe's site, if i remember it exactly, i joined this cafe's site back in 2012 or may be, i can say that it was those prime years when i embarked on my writing journey without having any destination to reaching... where? 

it was 2012 and now it's 2020 - i was bad at writing, but can find me pretty good at this stuff. So many things have i learned and experienced in those gone days in lost years... and in between that, if i find some time to think on it again, then more than what i have gained, i have lost something either - and it's my "AGE"... 

... how sad and funny it's to be saying that people become professional (s); become wealthy; richer and whatever w/ time and age and experience but it doesn't seem to be applicable to everyone. Whether you become wealthy; rich or successful in life w/ time - yes or no - doesn't matter - what matters is, with time and experience, you loose your age as well. And there comes this time and moment in everyone's life when we all sit quiet and think - what we have just found and what have we lost. 

Ps. 

Tonight, i am sitting in my bed and thinking how fast the time has vanished off my life. If i had some power, i am sure would have wished travelling my childhood again and cuff on me; my childhood; the naive me; on myself and saying: "NEVER WISH TO GROW UP cos sometimes... growing up doesn't really define what n who you are, but the state of your freedom does - the freedom of age." 

I still remember that night when i was sitting on my couch many long gone years back, esp. when i was way younger and immature, i turned on my laptop; visited this cafe's site and read some of the stuffs of my online writer-friends. And this is when i had come across a profile of one - very old - lady who was posting very worth reading stuffs. Right after reading and leaving a review on her post, I and she got involved into some nice nice conversation and exchanged a very long thread. Me being immature by age at that time; in those long years, i really don't remember the exact conversation but the words that i can recall and will always stay live in my head are: 

She said, "You are very young.. and it's good. You have a lot of time and things to do in your life." 

And i texted replying her back n saying, "I know old woman, i will never be aged... neither do i want to be old. I want to stay young forever." And i laughed and cracked a joke. 

She got me a smiley emoji.. and saying: "You will become old when time comes. Time never stops for anyone, sometimes it walks fast.. so sometime it takes time - this is what just we think - but the time come when it comes and it goes when it goes... and in between that, you miss old time and become old-er. I also used to think the way you think but age and experience and time are real truth you live in. Bless you." 

At that time, i cursed her and wondering: "how rude is she and why she wants me to become older!" 

But as time accumulated by, i realized that she wasn't rude neither did she want me become old, she was just speaking the truth that she always passed throu' or is keep walking throu' already. 

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09/19/2020

Saturday Noon, 1.36PM (CST/CDT) Chicago time zone - 

I am writing this post on my office laptop. 

PS. 

Request you to everyone whoever comes stopped by my page and reads this blog, please forgive me if i have made grammatical errors or anything in this post.. because this is the real time live post i am writing and don't have courage to re-read it again as i hardly re-read my work, esp. the one that makes me more weaker. 

Thank you. 

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451 Webinar ~

Missed attending this #Webinar {Attached be the link below} though thankfully replay was available... quite a session has it been as i just finished watching it. I would recommend business minded people or enthusiastic employees to watch this n learn something of valuable outta it that might help you in your business, work or any particular arena of job you working across.

Visit the link plz:

Workforce Transformation Into 2021 & Beyond

Speaker is: #ChrisMarsh
Anchor/Host: Not sure but it's #KaitlinBuckley, a marketing manager at #451Research, S&P Global Research Intelligence.

Ps.

To me, I really don't have any plans to return to office any sooner, not till December, or may be, beyond. As long as i don't feel like i am ready to travel to another city, i would prefer staying at home n continuing #WFH. Though, i completely understand that some companies won't get agreed to this so let's see what my next step would be - either to RTO (Return-To-Office) or choosing To put off my Resign.

Nevermind, it's a long way go... hopefully, if the company finds some skills in you, n ur leader wants you to stay w/ the company, they might allow u or employees to continue #WFH.

And this is gonna be pretty interesting to see, I guess. Ha! Good luck to all like minded employees! :-)

Shame On Mumbai Police ~

shame on #MumbaiPolice!! even i would say, shame on the whole police department of #India. In India, VP protection n Y+ security to b given to such Culprits... n Murderers... like #Ghea... opps... whateva her name is.. some kinda like.. #Rhea, i guess...

... i really wonder why police is giving this much of protection to a stupid psycho.. freaked out, Indian ghetto (ChokraBorty) gurl who killed Sushant Singh Rajput!!  #MumbaiPolice ARE really a fucking knuckleheads!! 

Quite honestly, after experiencing Delhiites, of course, post covid, i had a plan to move to, meet n greet, #Mumbaikars but after watching suchness of stupidity of #UddhavThackrey, #SanjayRaut n such carelessness of #MumbaiPolice alias #MumbaiMafia, i have changed my mind n don't have any plans to go to #Mumbai anymore.. for now. Not even later on as well. Though, it depends! 

Nevermind, i guess, if this much of protection was given to #SSR, he would have never been murdered. Stupid Indian Government n its asshole Police! 

This be another reason why EDUCATED n people WITH MIND choose leaving India n get settled in Abroad. I used to call such people pylons who left their own native country, but i guess, ive been very wrong at this. It's worth leaving India... but i would say.. never forget ur country n its people. Always respect where u born in.. but never stay static at same land to be walked on. 

Let's see what CBI does next - Awaiting to watch whether CBI also gets sold out like Mumbai Police or does something justified for #SSR!

 

Unfaded Memories

It's 10.25PM (IST) here - 5th September, 2020

Suddenly, outta nowhere, something pulled me back to gone time and nudged me to recollect some old memories. And guess what? - I walked past to another room where I started writing these blogs; looked across my rack & found my this very old laptop that I had bought back in 2012 during my first year of Graduation. I really don't ev'n remember neither do I recall when or since I last worked on this laptop.

There are so many memories attached to this laptop -

First, of course, it was/is my very first laptop

Second, I even embarked on my writing journey "ON" and just "cos" of this laptop. So I believe, this laptop is pretty special to me, and this might have been the reason why I never thought to sell it out in auctions...

.. i still remember, there was this time since & once i really planned to sell it out due to personal & family issues... which i would prefer not to disclose here. Though, time is pretty funny and has been way funnier to us all - when i wanted it to move and walk past, it never walked away but stopped in my life; during my bad days. And now, so many years later, when I  want time to stop, it's even running this far that I can't even chase on it.

And this is what makes me remind & remember - who i was and what i have just become. My old memories teach me some lessons which I still deny to learn because may be, it has been too late to become "Naive" again... though there's nothing wrong to become naive again, perhaps, the world is too bad to deal innocent ones, and you would be too naive to deal this bad world now. So the balance should remain maintained as long as it remains the same or unchanged... with such "Unfaded Memories" of gone time.

Ps.
Now i might be re-continuing posting on blogger.